Weakness

Reading in Matthew for my She Reads Truth study today and I always get stuck on this verse about Peter. Upon remembering the words of Jesus and realizing he had denied him, he wept bitterly. While my heart aches for Jesus throughout these chapters, at this point my heart always aches deeply for Peter. Because his flesh was weak, just like mine. It opens my eyes to the countless times I give in to sin (in little and big ways) each day. My flesh is weak. But thankfully I know the rest of the story. I know that it is in my weakness, God uses me. I can’t do it on my own. But when I let God work in and through me, His power is made perfect in my weakness. And I am lead to a place of deep gratitude for Jesus & His gift of grace through the cross. 

Stuck

Real talk today.

 Sometimes when life gets chaotic, (or maybe right now it is also has something to do with a long winter) my brain just sort of shuts down or gets stuck. My brain seems to be trying to decide what task to take on first and when it looks around and doesn't know where to start, it just panics. Over the years, I have learned that not enough time in my bible, getting overwhelmed, and not taking care of myself all lead me down this path. Satan totally gets this too. It never fails, as soon as I seem to get into a pattern of consistency, something happens to get me off track again. 

But thankfully, through a lot of prayer and paying attention, I have started to realize these patterns and stop them sooner. I can see when I am starting to get stressed and too busy. And most importantly, I am learning to push myself through my feelings or lack of feelings, to do the things that make me a better person, wife, mama, daughter, sister, & friend.

This girl needs a whole lot of Jesus and His truth. And I am so thankful He is always there and never lets me down. Today the very last thing I wanted to do was work out. But am I ever glad that I did. I am always so surprised and thankful for how great I feel when I consistently take care of myself. And I am definitely learning to take things a day at a time. What am I doing today to keep my focus on God and His will for me? And what am I doing to take care of myself today? 

This is real life. No makeup. Tired eyes. A messy house...

But also a full heart, a mind on Jesus, and a determination to run my race well.