Saturday, September 18, 2010

Personal Weakness

Life has been more than stressful lately for more than a few reasons and I had reached a place of deepest exhaustion both mentally and physically. Some of it came back to that same old struggle of me wanting to be able to control things, fix things, or understand things. While trying to relax tonight I decided to re-read  a book I read a couple years ago called "Grace Walk" by Steve McVey. God knew what he was doing when he put the longing to read this book in my heart tonight. There I was feeling exhausted, confused, and just frustrated asking God what his plan for me was in all of this chaos and what "I" needed to be doing. Feeling like I didn't have the strength to deal with anymore stress anymore. As I started to read the first page of the foreword  I was hit by the powerful truth that God's power shows up best in our personal weakness.
The world is desinged to wear down those of us who rely on our own strength instead of letting God work through us. I can not tell you how much relief I felt hearing that reminder. I don't need to be strong, I just need to let God work through me. The book goes on to explain how God will do more "through us" than we could ever do "for him".
Isn't it both amazing and a relief to know that God is perfect in our weakness? There I was dealing with more stress than I could have ever imagined possible and suddenly I felt less burdened than ever. God will work through me when I give up and give him control. And I have no reason to worry because God understands those things that my mind could never grasp and when I trust him and don't give in to stress and worry things always work themselves out in ways I never could have imagined. Sometimes we need these little reminders of things that seem pretty obvious when we step back and take in the word of God.
I am so thankful for the many blessings in my life and for the peace I have knowing that God has plans in the very worst scenarios and things will work out according to HIS plans.
If you are looking for a great book about grace check out Grace Walk by Steve McVey.
Here is a verse that I have been concentrating on tonight.
2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Happy Thoughts

It feels like the it has been a million years since we blogged about infertility. Life got so crazy the last year that it felt like everything in our little world stopped while the rest of the world just kept flying by. But there wasn't a single day that went by that we weren't thinking about babies. It seems like the "baby fever" has gotten especially worse lately if that is even possible. We have spent the last year going over IVF or adoption first, how will we afford either option, what is God's plan for us in all of this, and a million other things.
But more than anything my thoughts are mostly centered around things like how amazing it will be to see Max with our babies, how great it will feel to hold our baby for the first time, picturing our family growing in the house we have built, and things like that. The struggles make me realize how wonderful it will be when we do start our family and my mind likes to dwell on those happy thoughts.
We are so thankful for the peace we have in God's plan and so thankful for all of you who have been continually praying for us. We hope to be updating again soon on where this journey is taking us next!