Lately life has taken us in directions we never wanted or dreamed of going. Thanks to a careless banker and a shady contractor we had our budget for the house totally blown. This definitely took away from some of the excitement of getting to this point. When we end up closing next week we will still have a giant pile of dirt sitting in our yard that we have now decided to take on ourselves rather than let the shady contractor anywhere near it. We will owe our parents money which is the worst feeling in the world. But we will be working our butts off to get past all of this and trusting God to help us get through it.
This also means all plans for dealing with the infertility have been put on hold as well as we pay for all of this mess. I know in my heart that our family will grow when the time is right so I try not to get discouraged by all of this.
You never know what curves life is going to throw at you. You can plan and save and think you are in control and have it all blow up right in your face. And for someone who likes to plan and be prepared for any and everything this is SUPER frustrating. But God also knows the plan for my life and will get me through this if I trust and follow him. This is a real comfort to a planner/control freak like myself. So instead I am off to pray, plan, and trust that everything is going to work out.
Everyone keeps telling me that someday I will look back at all of this and realize it wasn't as big of a deal as it seems like. I look forward to seeing that day and knowing we made it there!
